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Senior Year -No Not Yet
It’s the beginning of my daughter’s senior year. Yesterday was her last day as a Junior, and I am already having a hard time with the roller coaster of emotions that loom ahead.…
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600 Days – Forever Missing You
Dear Ava, May 4, 2019, marks 600 days since you took your final breath. Its nearly Mother‘s Day again. I wonder what life would be like had things turned out differently. Missing you looks and…
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The Monster Within
Today I started my day reading an article about a man who succumbed to grief and took his own life. Sadly, the act of suicide is not uncommon, so that statement will not…
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Another Monday
Not just another Monday In fact, since Ava passed 18 months ago this is the 5th Monday the 11th… 9/11/17 – My heart shattered, unmendable. 12/11/17 – I didn’t want to go on,…
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Bound
White white snow coming down building deep all around. Grey grey skies far and wide no sunshine to be found. Blue blue heart beyond repair falling tears make no sound. Black black room…
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Frozen
Frozen in time Frozen in heart Frozen in mind When you died the clock stopped in my world. In my heart and mind, no time could exist without you. No mother’s heart should…
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10 years ago…
And to think I thought this day 10 years ago was the worst… January 28, 2009 My hands are shaking really bad as I type this so please forgive me. We got REALLy…
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New Year New View
I vividly remember the sadness of last New Year’s Eve. The painful acknowledgment that this would be the first year no new memories with Ava would exist. Ava LIVED in 2017 and…
