Building A Home

I feel like building this website is similar to building a home. I want it to be just right, so visitors will enjoy their stay and stick around for a bit. I remember when we built our home, that was what I wanted for my family a comfortable secure place where they could have the freedom to grow and feel a full range of emotions. I am still finding the right places to put the essentials and have room for the nonessentials, you know those special things that typically bring the most joy or peace.

As I put this site together I find myself questioning the purpose and functionality. To better explain, you may recall moving into a new home and standing in your kitchen or garage surrounded by boxes wondering where the best place for the silverware or screwdrivers might be. If you get it wrong then the functionality will likely be impacted, but if you have never worked in this space before you may have trouble getting a feel of how it will flow. That’s where I am at, where does it go and is this the right space for the material? So many things to consider, so, for now, I will continue to write content and move things around to get a feel for this new home. I hope you don’t mind the mess as I unpack and get settled.

Speaking of getting settled, I have been working to organize some of my writings. I have many short pieces stored on my phone. Just quick tidbits that I needed to get out of my head from time to time. One of these writings, in particular, took me back to why I started this blog. I desperately needed a place of healing and positivity.

The writing goes like this…

“I have fallen into a dark hole and can’t get out. When I hit bottom I shattered like a glass vase. Here I lay in a million pieces broken beyond repair. I am all alone in this dark lair. If I had a voice I might cry out, but there is no sound. Maybe I just don’t want to be fixed. Is how I am meant to be, broken and alone at the bottom of a dark hole?”

So this “home” I am building is different than that dark hole. It will be full of light and healing. There will be some moments of broken I am sure, but I want to be fixed. I am crawling out slowly and ever so cautiously patching the pieces together with lots of glue. I just hope it sticks.

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